I leave on Thursday
im excited because i feel like the new record will be recieved well.
id like to have a ton of kids get a record i did again.
im nervous
im a nervous wreck
this is entirely on me this time,no more 50/50
i feel more confident with this than any of the other records, but in the past my confidence has been nothing but a kiss of death.
the more im sure of anything
the more likely it is to blow up in my fucking face.

regardless i love this record
i love these words
i love these songs, they are perfect
they are exactly what i wanted.
exactly what i envisioned the record i wanted to write to be.

i love jake even when i want to smash his head with football, hes so much like me it terrifys me it makes me want to smack him and tell him to not do everything hes doing because ive done the exact same things.
i love paul he makes me want to try to be a better person
i love rich more and more everyday as he gets exponentially wierder and more awkward to me,i could sit and watch him talk for hours and it would never get old.
and i love buzz as he makes me miss having a "little" brother, i want to drink his blood and steal his energy.

i dont know how im gonna deal without having agnes everyday, thats gonna suck beyond words.

me and monica are getting closer and thats crazy to me, good crazy, im kinda gonna miss our hang out and shit i never considered us being friends like we are now.

i always miss greg even when i want to throw him off a building.

Me and George built the loft for the van, it was some pretty killer step-father son time and now we have probably the most bitchin van loft ever.

im kinda scared to leave my mom, shes really kinda just a swirling ball of wierdness lately.

im kinda stoked to see my tour friends , kinda stoked to be tour manager..kinda nervous on that too.

i forget to send back my netflicks again..fuck.

i gotta buy socks