This is not the time for this.
i have ten things i need to juggle right now in the hope of getting each one 20% right,and it is damn well known that i will throw them all out the window to "fix" this.
im so confused, im so fucking confused, im terrified.
the best part of this was this was new and different and it proved me wrong about what i thought things could be like.
Hey, it could happen even for me.
Now things like this.
things like this make me think its not so different.
im still clueless
im still useless
im still fucking hopeless
im not gonna say i need it
but i want it more than anything else.
i can survive it again, no one knows their way through that whole thing better than me
i know it intimately
its the not losing of what is now or was, but the losing of what could still happen that fucking bugs me.
Im gonna try to "fix" it, obviously
obviously im going to do everything in my power
I wont ask you to meet me half way, because i have changed everything already.
meet me 1/10th of the way please.
fuck this whole thing.
how good is the fucking troublemaker demo?
